☆ハナ☆

☆ハナです。☆

Today is the birthday of tabe-chan, a dear friend of mine and an awesome artist. She is truly incredible and very nice~
To celebrate this, I drew her a small present:

It's not much, and my coloring is bad, but I hope she likes it! :3 I drew her manga form, and my own. Ah, if only my hair were actually black and red...

But now, to the point:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TABE!

:3 Also, I'm starting to be more active on my photography account, xXUchihaxHanaXx. I'm trying to write more for LoveItaDei, my main account, too. I've recently gotten obsessed with Slaxl (Saul Hudson/Slash x William Axl Rose)... and Duff x Izzy. XD

I'm actually writing a Slaxl/Duzzy story, it's a oneshot, maybe even a twoshot... I hope I can actually finish and post it. I still have pending birthday presents... two for Dei, actually. And there's also all the requests I must do, and then my stories~

I really want to start on LIFE ON THE ROAD soon, but I'd like to finish the characters' introductions first. There are also the other stories I want to do...

Ah, and of course, I want to leave here a marked thanks~! One of my friends Alice/Kurai, has payed me a 3 month subscription on dA! This can be considered old news, it was ten days ago, but I'm still really happy and thankful for it.

I am considering drawing more chibis... and improving my coloring. I've taken quite a liking to chibi art, and it's undoubtebly easier for me than drawing the most used anime style... Also, I have that thing for cuteness, and chibi seems to fit it well.

Also, I may start posting my sketches or useless doodles, or some of my notebook drawings here. :3 Don't mind their terrible crappiness...

I want a professional camera, I need a new cable and box for my guitar, I need a new acoustic guitar for my fingers,

☆ハナです。☆

I miss Ricardo. *dies*
I tried to call him today, but I don't know exactly his schedule for college, so I never know what's the best time to contact him. His cellphone was off, meaning he was still at work, too. I hope I can get through to him soon... and I hope we can meet in a few days or less. As much as we don't have Valentine's Day in Brazil, I'd like to spend some time with him.

I'm back to working on most of my blogs, I still don't know exactly what to post on my site... well, not much news anyway. I skipped class with Serginho today, I was so damn tired. x.x

I may go in early today, I'm so sleepy, and dad is back from Peru... I'm waiting for Dei to come back on at the moment, so I'm not going yet. Maybe around midnight.

Tomorrow I'll try calling Ricardo again, so I hope I can get through to him. <3

Mom has been ultra-bitchy these days... and I had been depressing for many reasons, so one adding to the other, we were definitely not on the best terms. I'm off to write ItaDei fanfics now.

☆おやすみ。☆

☆ハナです。☆

Ok, I really, really NEED to say something.
MONOSHITSUJI? What the-
Kuroshitsuji with Ciel and Sebby,
That's Kuroshitsuji!
Now some new guys,
In Monoshitsuji... x.x
Who the hell got that idea?

☆おやすみ。☆

☆ハナです。☆

~School~

-Colored pencils
-Pencils
-Pens
-Extra notebook
-Pencil cases
-Bag
-Arts notebook
-Paints
-Paintbrushes

~Arts~

-Arts notebook
-Rough paper
-Pencils
-Colored pencils
-Markers
-Paints
-Paintbrushes
-Crayons

~Anime/Manga~

-Loveless
-Naruto
-Death Note
-Junjou Romantica
-Kuroshitsuji

~Anime/Manga related~

-NeoTokyo 049
-Anime>DO 096
-Death Note

☆ハナです。☆

I feel so numb or...
Depressed?
I have no idea why.
I was angry a moment ago,
But I usually don't be like this
After I'm angry... o.o
It's like if there's a hole
In my chest, and...
It's eating up everything,
Everything around it.

I think I'm feeling slightly better,
But I still want to curl up in bed
And cry my eyes out
For some reason.

I think it's lack of sleep...

☆おやすみ。☆

You are a Clueless Uke!

Having a good time is what you're all about. You're satisfied just to have someone to eat hamburgers and play video games with, and are completely oblivious to other's manipulative behavior. You don't expect much, and that can be a good thing. You're perfect prey for the Opportunist Seme, who might take advantage of you, but you probably won't even notice, or really care, as long as you're enjoying yourself.

Most compatible with: Opportunist Seme, Romantic Seme

Least compatible with: Sadistic Seme, Don't Fuck With Me Seme

What seme or uke are you? Take the experience at SemeUke.com, or find merchandise here.

☆ハナです。☆

I'm starting to have more control over my emotions.
That's good, I guess :3
I'll try controling them more! o/
I did promise Danna that I would, after all.

Ah, and it's so hot... x.x
Mom keeps stealing my fan >.>
Heh, this is bad. With the fan it's already hot,
Without it, it's hell.

I was talking to Kurai13 just now,
And then she left to sleep or try sleeping.
Talking to Danna, and I hope things get better.

Well, to update this, Danna was trying to push me away...
She says I shouldn't consider her a friend.
Today, she didn't seem to touch the matter.
Also, she opened up about some things,
And we talked for some time the other day.

Ricardo is already in Balneário...
He said he'll visit soon, I'll be waiting. :3
Also, things seem to be getting better, slowly.
Just... Dei. Dei is with some problems in school,
And some problems out of school, and also,
Her health is not good. x.x
So I really, really hope things get well soon.
It's hard to see all of this happening.

LeH has, appearently, fallen for a guy named Douglas.
Aoi told me something about him... well, he...
He plays games, and cheats on girls,
And messes up their minds and shit.
When Aoi tried warning LeH, she says he was jealous.
Well, he IS, but what he said is true.
But she didn't believe him, and I...
I don't think she'll believe me.

Aoi is moving. MOVING.
I don't know what I'll do about this...
His mind is made up, I know there's
No way to stop him.
But if Danna locks herself up and Aoi moves...
Ricardo is already somewhat far,
He can only visit at times.
Dei would be... I don't know,
But if Danna locked herself away,
Dei would certainly be hit by it.

I feel like people around me are falling.
Slowly being torn apart.
And I can just watch, being tied to pillars,
Those are keeping me up.
But if they're going to be falling...
Why do these restraints stay,
Why can't I reach them?
It's a question I've asked myself over and over,
But I don't find the answer I want.

Well, things are happening.
Both good and bad.
School starts on the 17th.

I've got so many pages open now...
I want to close them and read Loveless.
-.-"
And my internet is slow,
Connection falling all the time.

☆おやすみ。☆