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My SLASH book arrived! Today's the 25th already, it arrived on the 23rd. I read up until a bit after Slash met Steven, some really funny things like how he stole snakes! *laughs* Imagine walking by and this guy has a jacket on, snakes rolled up his arms underneath that, stolen snakes, in the middle of town... and you're like unsuspecting and stuff xD It's just awesome, and the time he stole rare snakes and had to steal books to care for them...

Anyway, me being myself I already looked through lots of the pics of the book before even arriving on those pages in reading, because I'm just that kind of a photo-lover! I can't help it, any book with photos/illustrations... I'll see first, read later. But I didn't see all of them, yet.

And well, today's the 25th. I have school in a bit, we'll be let out early 'cause of the game (Brazil and Portugal today). It's also been exactly a year since Michael Jackson's death, so now I'm watching This Is It. If only I had that guy's patience, man... anyway, yeah.

I've also been looking through my collection of Guns N' Roses photos, and Steven is almost always with one arm possessively wrapped around Duff's waist. As much as they're cute, my favs are always Duff and Iz~ soo... why not make Izzy suspect something because of the photos? Writing about that now.

And it's cold, not as bad as before but still cold - and it is going to get much, much colder still! - and I want a heater or warmer pants. I'm in freaking jeans. Well, with another pair of pants under that.

I also found out Axl had something similiar to what I have when it comes to our energy. I mean, they said that before - at the very start - he had so much energy and not where to use it, so he'd kind of convulse, shake a lot because of it. I do, very often nowadays, shake of so much energy I have unless I'm in constant movement and constant talking...

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I'm reading Jackie Chan's blog, catching up with it. Read about Yushu and Yunan already, and now about Shanghai Expo. I finally posted a new journal on dA, it had been some time. Answered all my messages on my main page (LoveItaDei), too. I still have things to check, make sure things at Projeto Puma are going okay, and post more news on that.

I didn't sleep last night, but I fell asleep as soon as I came home. Then I woke up at night, managed to watch CSI Las Vegas and New York, and I won't sleep again. Tomorrow I have to return a Bruce Lee film, and then go out to get egg boxes with Aoi - we need them for the studio and we can't buy thousands of egg boxes, can we? - in the afternoon, and I also have guitar class. Aside from that, we have tests.

I'm calmer than before, actually... There's another week with koi around, but I don't know if I'll be able to come on tonight. It depends, I think I'll be dead tired. I just realized I'll never really get my sleeping back to normal, even because I'm seriously planning on continuing in music - and a musician tends to sleep at the oportunity most of the times, having to grab onto some things for money since music alone is a hard thing to live by.

Speaking of music, I missed Paul McCartney's birthday on the 18th, so here I'll say happy birthday to him. So close, his birthday and this day... it's almost the 25th, isn't it? It'll be one year since Michael died, I wonder if I'll have time to do something for that.

And it's getting colder - as cold as it's never been down here. They say it'll hit the record down here, of the last century perhaps. We're in Brazil, damn it, and close to the sea. Sure, we're down South, meaning it's not as hot as up in the Amazonas - hell, if I lived up there I'd... die from the heat -, but this is more than only cold. It's the kind of cold you'd expect from Lages and São Joaquim, they say.

Lages and São Joaquim are some of the coldest - if not the coldest - cities in Brazil, it snows there at times... if it gets that cold down here, I don't want to know how it'll be there, up in the mountains. Dad and my sisters are probably going to freeze, but Olga's more used to low temperatures.

But I wonder how to survive this - we don't have a heater, probably won't afford one -, so I'm counting on soup and a hot mug of tea, with meat and chicken if it's needed to keep the bodies well fed, and vegetables to keep the immune system running. I've developed a particularly bad sensitivity to the cold - at times, Aoi and Koinu say I pale so badly from the cold they think I'm with hypothermia, and in the worst days I even had Koinu lend me one of his jackets because I was so much colder than him.

One of the worst things is that in the cold, the guitar strings burn your fingers open, cut and tear... and really, I don't want to stay without playing. I'ma see if I can get a heater because I don't want to stop playing for an age just because of the stupid cold.

I also need warmer clothes, I don't have thick pants so I've been using tight pants underneath jeans to make me warm enough, even so it's freezing. Leather boots, leather jacket over long sleeves, long gloves and wristbands, my hat to protect my ears and just messing with the collar of the jacket to protect my neck.

I'm running from warm baths into hopefully warm clothes all the time, and having to heat any drink but water.

Anyway, onto my long comments on things.

Jackie Chan is incredible, I don't know how that man even exists. His past, the way he was born and the hospital being payed by others, the opera school, the way he can sing, dance, act, be that funny and kind person he is, always work for others and putting sleep as his last thing, and those martial arts... I don't know what to say.

I've always been a fan of his since the first movie I watched with him in it - since then I've watched all I can find, too - and then the animated series, and recently his music as well. And the charity events, the way he changes his schedule to visit cities and villages damaged by earthquakes and all other stuff, and planning parties and projects to help people... it's just insane.

He works so much and so well, that's one reason why I want to start taking martial arts seriously too - not to mention it would help my endurance which will be needed, I just know it.

He's one of those that influence me so much, along with Teruki, Steven, Izzy, Slash, Axl and all those...

And now more than ever I want Exile On Main St. and Stones in Exile, I've just been listening more to the Rolling Stones recently and the way they recorded that album - fires, light problems, power, recording in a freaking basement, in exile - is just insanely impressive. I know, I have a passion and admiration for insane things! *laughs*

It's examples like these - the Stones recording in that condition but not giving up, Jackie overworking himself for the good of other people but still being himself, Slash and Nikki and the others having survived all that, Steven's story, and... Mick Mars is just wow, just... wow - that make me know I have to go on even if it's the hardest path. I'm not about to give up. And Teruki did teach me not to give up, after all.

I don't know if I've mentioned it, but my grandmother is going to give me a DVD - the Michael Jackson: Live In Bucharest - The Dangerous Tour - from 1992. I LOVE that concert, it's just... the man wants to continue on stage, his management practically drags him away.

Other than that, I want Izzy's albums too... and the Slash album. Man, I need to list everything I want down, seriously! It's so much...

Anyway, I have things to do before school.

Kissu~

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Sorry, but if I were in Ozzy's place - being tested to see how the hell I was alive - I don't know if I'd laugh or be just... yeah. XD I mean, he has been through a lot of shit, done a lot of shit, used a lot of shit, but man... testing to see why he's alive?

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Freaking Pink Floyd is going to kill me... *sigh* So I'm switching from HIM's Killing Loneliness to Pink Floyd's Wish You Were Here... and if I get depressing I'ma change it to Slipknot's Psychosocial and change moods again...

It's around 3am, my koi's comp is fucking up... I don't want to stay without talking to her... I miss her already, I'm almost fucking crying already... *curls up*

I can still breathe, though, for now... but I tend to get more nervous with time... at least her brother's going to be away next week, then we can talk... but after that, I don't know... .-.

Something tells me I'll be writing a lot of stuff... and not moving away from Tsuki unless I have to go to school... or take her with me depending on the day... when I feel lonely I sleep with Tsuki by my side, being sure not to harm her, but yeah... it helps for comfort...

I'm already dying to see Lally again... but if I can't talk to koi either... *whines* Well maybe I'll see Lally next month... maybe... but I have no idea about koi, that scares me... .-.

I'm seriously considering calling Lally... I just... I can't talk to Aoi anymore, and I'm not bothering him at 3 in the morning... then again, Lally musn't even be home by now, most probably out somewhere with his sisters or if he has a girlfriend... or with the twins...

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Listening to Slipknot in what seems like an age. Took some photos today :3 Posted them already, all are of the sky. Well, two are city-things... I still have to post those.

I went out earlier, bought some stuff, payed bills... what else? Ah, I got sun on my arms... they got reddened but not burnt, which I'm thankful for. I'm just so glad I have Tsuki back with me, I was seriously starting to freak out about that.

Can't wait for my SLASH book to arrive, I really look forwards to reading it. I'm going to be done real soon with the Diary of Anne Frank, hope it gets here not long after... or maybe before. xD

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Let me start here, then. The day started with koi and I rp-ing, as usual~ then I left for school, Felipe's going early nowadays so I usually walk with Jeh until the bus stop, then Felipe and I talk about... well, the usual. The Beatles. XD I swear, he can be SO John at times!

Well, back to the rp... We made like inners for Nikki and Tommy, but then they turned out being other people! 8D It's so fun to play Nyx and Tony~! I guess we kind of shifted the focus onto them this time, as well as Tommy's amnesia after... a traumatic event. It's kind of a sequel to another we're doing, but that one started by focussing on the Gunners as a Slaxl rp, and then we added Mötley Crüe, and now we shift from here to there~

We have another one, too, also focused on Mötley Crüe, and also AU (the other two are like, the young them in 2010, this one is in the world of SS/FTGW).

Anyway, at school we had Biology... the teacher just talked for two periods, I knew the stuff from our other teacher explaining, so I slept ^^; xD Yeah. Then it was Chem... I also slept then, don't even remember seeing the teacher. At breakfast (kinda like lunch period...) I ate two full breads, while I'd usually get one for myself and one for Marcos or Aoi. Or both. I was so hungry *-*

Then we had, um... PE, but it was inside the classroom today. I didn't sleep 'cause I had just eaten. Then there was Geography... we went to the computer room, and as usual there weren't chairs enough. I got my mp4, sat on the floor at the very back, and read The Diary Of Anne Frank until I fell asleep, Manu having to wake me for me to go back to the classroom with the others.

Then school ended, and I went out for lunch with my grandmother. She also gave me some money, which I was quick to use in benefit of my collection. Well, I came home, then mom sent me out to buy smokes... *sigh* They shouldn't even be fucking selling those for kids, but the law around here... yeah. It was annoying 'cause the sun was so hot by then, and I don't leave without my hat and leather jacket.

Anyway, I came home and rested after that, before deciding to go out and put my new money to it's use. Getting my torn-up, to-be-fixed bike I went up to where my mom works, even if she was already home. There's a record store there, so that's what I wanted. Bought Thriller Special Edition, with bonus material being "Someone In The Dark" (Lyrics by Alan Bergman, music by Rod Temperton), "Billie Jean" Home Demo From 1981 (Written by Michael Jackson), Voice-Over Session From "Thriller" Including Vincent Price Reading The Never Before Heard Second Verse (Spoken by Michael Jackson and Vincent Prince), "Carousel" (Written by M. Sembello, D. Freeman).

I'm listening to that now, and it's interesting, including the interview parts. About the making of the record and Thriller, and it's original name... so yeah :3 But for a special edition, it was so not-expensive! I got a KISS CD, too, from 1976, for about... R$7 more expensive.

About this KISS record, yeah, I got it today as well, it's 1976's The Lost Concert. Haven't heard it yet, will do so as soon as I finish Thriller. I'm still somewhat sleepy, since after I came home I talked/rp-ed until... I fell asleep in the middle of it... and woke up about an hour ago. I may go back to sleep in a bit and listen to this tomorrow.

Hmm... speaking back to school, today was one of the calm days, but it's killing me. Next week we have so many tests and so many this and that... but I'll make it through, so I just have to think about how to survive.

And for good news! My SLASH book arrived at dad's house, he must've already put it in the mail for me. Let's hope it arrives soon. Until then I'm going to finish The Diary Of Anne Frank, and then resist the urge to ask for more books until I finish SLASH and the four books of Lynne Reid Banks, which would be The Indian In The Cupboard, The Return Of The Indian, The Secret Of The Indian, and The Mystery Of The Cupboard.

Recently I've been listening to a lot of Beatles (thanks to Felipe) and Michael Jackson, and I like the songs with Michael and Paulie, too. In this album, there's "The Girl Is Mine", where both of them sing. And talk. I want to get Say Say Say on CD, too... but so many other books and CDs, too. ^^;

As soon as my book gets here, I'll take some of my special CDs from their hiding place and show more of my collection, including the two new records and the book. Until then, I'll just picspam you with photos of the two new CDs only XDD I know they're not close to best quality, but it's freaking 2:30am.



The Lost Concert



Thriller

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I know it's been a while... anyway, I had this really weird dream and I just wanted to talk about it! I'm still laughing about some parts of it... and I think it has to do with my sleep-playlist last night including Highway To Hell, Hell's Bells and Hell Ain't A Bad Place To Be, by AC/DC.

As far as I remember, it started with me in my room, singing along to Highway To Hell, when -gasp!- mom arrived! She never heard me listening to any of this songs, and being the strict Christian she is... Well, she heard Highway To Hell once in a movie and I did the mistake of singing along with a part, but she was working on papers at the same time, so she didn't seem to notice.

Anyway, back to the dream. She told me to stop that song, delete it and anything similiar, and went on a rant about how it could ruin my life, and actually send me to hell, be tortured for eternity and all that stuff I got TIRED of hearing at church, it's really annoying after about 30 times.

So I started arguing with her, and somehow I came to saying something like "If I helped the Devil in torturing people, who says I'd be tortured myself? I mean, if he's so evil he won't only like to hurt and corrupt people, but watch them being broken by others, too. Or maybe he still has a little of his angel side in him, huh?" At that point, we somehow weren't in my room anymore. We were in this weird room, one side painted white and the other red.

On the red side, was a big throne with the Devil sitting on it, around him lots of demons, and Angus Young was at my side. He was questioning himself if he had died or not... but the funny is that I remember the Devil wearing an AC/DC shirt, and Angus his horns. So I started arguing with the Devil, and we concluded he would like me to help him torture people. On the other, white, side of the room, were mom and Alice Cooper... rather, Vincent Damon. Some angels around them, but they said God was busy so he couldn't come...

And then it was fun also, because mom hates Alice/Vincent to death, and I was like... "Do I glomp Vincent or Angus? Or both?" And then I think I woke up, or don't remember more...

XDD Anyway, it must be because of the songs or something, because as all you know we here ain't exactly Christian, we meaning Mina and I, so even the 'devil' idea would be weird since he's a figure of that religion. xD But still, 't was pretty awesome as far as I remember.