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Yesterday was a really full day. I had much to do, and washed the floors, tables, and I scrubbed the outside chairs clean. Still, all that doesn't compare to the work of giving Itachi a bath. He's so energetic, doesn't stop moving a bit - and it doesn't help that he hates baths. My arms are all scratched now!

But it was fun, I got to play with him now that he isn't all stinky anymore~! And I took some photos, though most came out too bright thanks to the sun. I also found out we have berries in the garden, and Hashi's new hiding place is in their bushes.

After that, I went out to buy some things - ramen, cheese, a small orange cake, and some bread - and get a bit of fresh air. I need to fix my bike, though, I'll see to that one of these days(^_^;)

I've also been updating a lot of my blog for music photography, basically an organization of my collections, but I only upload them when I have a bit of sense from what year or month they're from... most of the times. Since I've been too busy for Nyappy Brasil, my AnCafe fansite, I'm paying more attention to a new one I made - focused only on Teruki, so I need less time. I'll catch up with the AnCafe one later.

As you may know, Tsuki got scratched... well, it's more like her paint tore off at some point. I don't know how it happened... Next Saturday, my teacher's friend is coming to town to fix some of his guitars, I'll see with him how much it should cost to get her fixed.

I've recently had a sore throat - couldn't speak, eat properly and swallowing anything hurt a lot, so I drank little. Now, I'm better... it still hurts a bit, at times, but I can talk☆

Today I have more chores to do, so later on I should try posting more here~! I'm also using my Tumblr a lot, I'll add the link to the menu above.

Nyappy~♪

("Meriken" is a Japanese slang used for "American". They wanted to put emphasis on the "ME" and they dropped the "A" , so it becomes "Meriken". But it still means "American")

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Hello~! Well, I have lots of things to talk about today - maybe this time I'll actually get it all through.

I hadn't eaten in over 24 hours, I realized that when my stomach started to burn earlier today. I didn't even notice it. So I went out a few hours today and bought myself some food, I realy didn't like the taste and didn't feel hungry, but I don't want to go anorexic or something. I'm not sick, so it can be my sleeping hours, or I don't know. At least now I know I can at least force some food down if needed, sometimes when I was like this I'd throw up almost anything.

Yesterday I was told we may travel today, so I'll leave things packed already and maybe we'll be leaving for São Paulo at night, to get there tomorrow morning. Morning meaning early morning, because we'll probably get there by sunrise or earlier. If we do go, I'm prepared to face the cold. I mean, here it can be terribly cold in winter, but... let's say, if I'm not prepared I'll come back in an ice cube, which is somewhat weird considering it should be hotter there... we're more to the South!

But I'm also wondering why Duff didn't post yesterday on Seattle Weekly, since on Monday he always posts what music he listens to and about it... Maybe something happened, I hope nothing bad. I love following his blog there, he always writes stuff to move us - be it sad, funny, happy, frightening or adorably cute! - and it's always like a journey, he writes so well...

I can't even wait for his book to come out, I'm really expecting to buy it. I want so many books, I should get some time and finish SLASH, then try to get The Heroin Diaries or Tommyland... or The Dirt. And I also can hardly wait to buy My Appetite For Destruction: Sex, Dugs and Guns N' Roses. Actually, if I were to get all at once, I wouldn't know where to start. There are SO many books, I want to know so much and read into those... but I guess one at a time, right? I really hope to get them all, though, someday.

Nikki's going to release another book soon, which will of course leave me in doubt if I should get The Heroin Diaries or the other first, because it's somewhat obvious I won't get THD before said other book comes out.

Aside from books, I want to talk about something else. I met this guy - Eduardo - some time ago, really not in the best of my moods since it was clear I'd been crying and just broken down, but we share lots of common interests in music. He had me listen to Blind Guardian for the first time, and I can only say one thing. "I. Love. It." They have awesome songs, and they're based off books - including my beloved J.R.R. Tolkien books. I was listening to the album Nightfall In Middle-Earth today - still am, now listening to "Into The Storm" - and I just adore that one. It's based off The Silmarillion by Tolkien, and the music is just... you know, it gets to you, it makes you stick to it.

I swear, I'm adding those to the list of music to buy, because I really don't like listening to music and knowing I didn't pay for that... I guess it comes with my ties even as a starting musician, you know. My dad said it's stupid that I always want to buy the CD/DVD, but I think that if everyone listened only on youtube and downloaded stuff for free, the artists would never get any money and they live off that... it's like having the money to buy food but just stealing it and taking other people to ruin.

I guess, that's how I think of it. I want to get the CDs later, but I have so many to get... I'll see if I get more money now that I go up to SP, I hope my brother forgot about those R$34 that I supposedly owe him since last year... It's not my fault mom didn't give me money enough and he had to buy a shirt!

Anyway, I have some photos on my camera... and mom's with said camera for some time, so I probably won't post any photos until I get it back. For now, I'll feature a credited devitation... with Nikki and Slash, and our dearest tophat~!


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Let me see, it's been some time since I wrote here. My classes return on August 2nd, not giving me much time, and I need to pass the year more than ever. I also have lots of things to look forward to, as well as complain about and many things will keep me busy for the remaining months of this year.

Well, I went to my grandparents' apartment in Florianópolis for the first week of the holidays, and well... fuck, I hope I never go there again. I mean, I can't stand my grandfather, my grandmother can be terrible and I have no idea how many times I broke down there. It was shattering, for most part, though I managed to write some more... I feel I write better when away from home, or at least write more. Maybe because this place, even with mom around, has become so safe I don't really have much to write about. I'm back to the era where I go to school and home, I don't want to go out more... and at the same time I want to stay out.

I'm still making plans to get a running bike, but what I really want is a Harley. I want to set off somewhere without a place to go, but having somewhere to return to... maybe that's the best for me to try, but the laws of this place. Uh, how many times will I get angry at the law being for driving only at 18 years old, instead of 16?

Sure, I'm not sixteen yet, but I'll be fifteen at the end of the year and waiting another three years to be able to drive is like... ugh. Yeah. I don't really know, I want to go somewhere, do something... and I can't go anywhere with Harpy, my bike, because she's already old. Or I give her a complete fix or she's only taking me to guitar class and back. I don't want to let go of her, she's a good running bike.

Maybe if I get a motorcycle, then yeah... I can go wherever, whenever and not give a damn, still have somewhere to come home to, and if not... then I can find new places and go there. I don't know why, I guess I need this freedom thing.

Been listening to lots of things, lately, from Izzy to Bob Marley and Peter Tosh, and Alice Cooper, Mötley Crüe, The Alarm and other things... speaking of Iz, thanks to Duff on Seattle Weekly, I know about his new album, Wave Of Heat. I want to get my dad to buy that and see if I can get the others, too...

All these songs make me think, travel, and much more... but I need to write better. Guess what, then? I'm going to practice on Music Memes and follow on the ideas, making actual stories. Maybe that can work.

Well, I don't know, I don't know what I'll write about now... so maybe another time.

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During the considerably long time I didn't write here, dA failed on me - it's still not working -, Mick Jagger showed to be a bad-luck charm for the World Cup, my mom came into my room when I had CLEARLY SAID I DIDN'T WANT HER MESSING HERE and she went through all my stuff, vanished with my guitar picks and "organized" the room - well, thanks mom, now I'm lost in a very unknown area.

Anyway, I'm trying to calm down and just find a way to work out things with dA - if it isn't back by tomorrow night, I'm going to murder it. I missed guitar class today, wasn't feeling so well and needed sleep both. I'm probably going to rest a bit before it's time for koi to come on, but I'm not tired anymore.

Now I'm listening to a bunch of Beatles songs, thinking of what to do. Tomorrow I'm dying my hair, and there's a gigantic test and then I have do to the other PE test again... Yeah. I've been very weird lately, my moods or go to extreme moodswingy or to emotionless-tired.

I'm actually writing this because I need to write SOMETHING and I'm not in the mood to "translate" my handwriting and pass the stories onto the computer now... so I may write something more in a bit if I find the right song. I usually look back on series on dA itself, it's less troublesome than on .Word, but it seems necessary now. I want it working again *pouts*

I just hope koi can come on before 3am (my time) then we'll have some time, it's weird... I miss her, ne, with only a little time to talk each day - when I don't fall asleep on her or something, since my hours are completely disorganized...

So I'm wasting my words writing here, on my other blog - I'll post a link as soon as it's enough - and on twitter.

Now, let me go find something to do ^^ Soon enough I'll write an actual update XD

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My SLASH book arrived! Today's the 25th already, it arrived on the 23rd. I read up until a bit after Slash met Steven, some really funny things like how he stole snakes! *laughs* Imagine walking by and this guy has a jacket on, snakes rolled up his arms underneath that, stolen snakes, in the middle of town... and you're like unsuspecting and stuff xD It's just awesome, and the time he stole rare snakes and had to steal books to care for them...

Anyway, me being myself I already looked through lots of the pics of the book before even arriving on those pages in reading, because I'm just that kind of a photo-lover! I can't help it, any book with photos/illustrations... I'll see first, read later. But I didn't see all of them, yet.

And well, today's the 25th. I have school in a bit, we'll be let out early 'cause of the game (Brazil and Portugal today). It's also been exactly a year since Michael Jackson's death, so now I'm watching This Is It. If only I had that guy's patience, man... anyway, yeah.

I've also been looking through my collection of Guns N' Roses photos, and Steven is almost always with one arm possessively wrapped around Duff's waist. As much as they're cute, my favs are always Duff and Iz~ soo... why not make Izzy suspect something because of the photos? Writing about that now.

And it's cold, not as bad as before but still cold - and it is going to get much, much colder still! - and I want a heater or warmer pants. I'm in freaking jeans. Well, with another pair of pants under that.

I also found out Axl had something similiar to what I have when it comes to our energy. I mean, they said that before - at the very start - he had so much energy and not where to use it, so he'd kind of convulse, shake a lot because of it. I do, very often nowadays, shake of so much energy I have unless I'm in constant movement and constant talking...

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I'm reading Jackie Chan's blog, catching up with it. Read about Yushu and Yunan already, and now about Shanghai Expo. I finally posted a new journal on dA, it had been some time. Answered all my messages on my main page (LoveItaDei), too. I still have things to check, make sure things at Projeto Puma are going okay, and post more news on that.

I didn't sleep last night, but I fell asleep as soon as I came home. Then I woke up at night, managed to watch CSI Las Vegas and New York, and I won't sleep again. Tomorrow I have to return a Bruce Lee film, and then go out to get egg boxes with Aoi - we need them for the studio and we can't buy thousands of egg boxes, can we? - in the afternoon, and I also have guitar class. Aside from that, we have tests.

I'm calmer than before, actually... There's another week with koi around, but I don't know if I'll be able to come on tonight. It depends, I think I'll be dead tired. I just realized I'll never really get my sleeping back to normal, even because I'm seriously planning on continuing in music - and a musician tends to sleep at the oportunity most of the times, having to grab onto some things for money since music alone is a hard thing to live by.

Speaking of music, I missed Paul McCartney's birthday on the 18th, so here I'll say happy birthday to him. So close, his birthday and this day... it's almost the 25th, isn't it? It'll be one year since Michael died, I wonder if I'll have time to do something for that.

And it's getting colder - as cold as it's never been down here. They say it'll hit the record down here, of the last century perhaps. We're in Brazil, damn it, and close to the sea. Sure, we're down South, meaning it's not as hot as up in the Amazonas - hell, if I lived up there I'd... die from the heat -, but this is more than only cold. It's the kind of cold you'd expect from Lages and São Joaquim, they say.

Lages and São Joaquim are some of the coldest - if not the coldest - cities in Brazil, it snows there at times... if it gets that cold down here, I don't want to know how it'll be there, up in the mountains. Dad and my sisters are probably going to freeze, but Olga's more used to low temperatures.

But I wonder how to survive this - we don't have a heater, probably won't afford one -, so I'm counting on soup and a hot mug of tea, with meat and chicken if it's needed to keep the bodies well fed, and vegetables to keep the immune system running. I've developed a particularly bad sensitivity to the cold - at times, Aoi and Koinu say I pale so badly from the cold they think I'm with hypothermia, and in the worst days I even had Koinu lend me one of his jackets because I was so much colder than him.

One of the worst things is that in the cold, the guitar strings burn your fingers open, cut and tear... and really, I don't want to stay without playing. I'ma see if I can get a heater because I don't want to stop playing for an age just because of the stupid cold.

I also need warmer clothes, I don't have thick pants so I've been using tight pants underneath jeans to make me warm enough, even so it's freezing. Leather boots, leather jacket over long sleeves, long gloves and wristbands, my hat to protect my ears and just messing with the collar of the jacket to protect my neck.

I'm running from warm baths into hopefully warm clothes all the time, and having to heat any drink but water.

Anyway, onto my long comments on things.

Jackie Chan is incredible, I don't know how that man even exists. His past, the way he was born and the hospital being payed by others, the opera school, the way he can sing, dance, act, be that funny and kind person he is, always work for others and putting sleep as his last thing, and those martial arts... I don't know what to say.

I've always been a fan of his since the first movie I watched with him in it - since then I've watched all I can find, too - and then the animated series, and recently his music as well. And the charity events, the way he changes his schedule to visit cities and villages damaged by earthquakes and all other stuff, and planning parties and projects to help people... it's just insane.

He works so much and so well, that's one reason why I want to start taking martial arts seriously too - not to mention it would help my endurance which will be needed, I just know it.

He's one of those that influence me so much, along with Teruki, Steven, Izzy, Slash, Axl and all those...

And now more than ever I want Exile On Main St. and Stones in Exile, I've just been listening more to the Rolling Stones recently and the way they recorded that album - fires, light problems, power, recording in a freaking basement, in exile - is just insanely impressive. I know, I have a passion and admiration for insane things! *laughs*

It's examples like these - the Stones recording in that condition but not giving up, Jackie overworking himself for the good of other people but still being himself, Slash and Nikki and the others having survived all that, Steven's story, and... Mick Mars is just wow, just... wow - that make me know I have to go on even if it's the hardest path. I'm not about to give up. And Teruki did teach me not to give up, after all.

I don't know if I've mentioned it, but my grandmother is going to give me a DVD - the Michael Jackson: Live In Bucharest - The Dangerous Tour - from 1992. I LOVE that concert, it's just... the man wants to continue on stage, his management practically drags him away.

Other than that, I want Izzy's albums too... and the Slash album. Man, I need to list everything I want down, seriously! It's so much...

Anyway, I have things to do before school.

Kissu~

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Sorry, but if I were in Ozzy's place - being tested to see how the hell I was alive - I don't know if I'd laugh or be just... yeah. XD I mean, he has been through a lot of shit, done a lot of shit, used a lot of shit, but man... testing to see why he's alive?