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☆ハナです。☆

Hello~! Well, I have lots of things to talk about today - maybe this time I'll actually get it all through.

I hadn't eaten in over 24 hours, I realized that when my stomach started to burn earlier today. I didn't even notice it. So I went out a few hours today and bought myself some food, I realy didn't like the taste and didn't feel hungry, but I don't want to go anorexic or something. I'm not sick, so it can be my sleeping hours, or I don't know. At least now I know I can at least force some food down if needed, sometimes when I was like this I'd throw up almost anything.

Yesterday I was told we may travel today, so I'll leave things packed already and maybe we'll be leaving for São Paulo at night, to get there tomorrow morning. Morning meaning early morning, because we'll probably get there by sunrise or earlier. If we do go, I'm prepared to face the cold. I mean, here it can be terribly cold in winter, but... let's say, if I'm not prepared I'll come back in an ice cube, which is somewhat weird considering it should be hotter there... we're more to the South!

But I'm also wondering why Duff didn't post yesterday on Seattle Weekly, since on Monday he always posts what music he listens to and about it... Maybe something happened, I hope nothing bad. I love following his blog there, he always writes stuff to move us - be it sad, funny, happy, frightening or adorably cute! - and it's always like a journey, he writes so well...

I can't even wait for his book to come out, I'm really expecting to buy it. I want so many books, I should get some time and finish SLASH, then try to get The Heroin Diaries or Tommyland... or The Dirt. And I also can hardly wait to buy My Appetite For Destruction: Sex, Dugs and Guns N' Roses. Actually, if I were to get all at once, I wouldn't know where to start. There are SO many books, I want to know so much and read into those... but I guess one at a time, right? I really hope to get them all, though, someday.

Nikki's going to release another book soon, which will of course leave me in doubt if I should get The Heroin Diaries or the other first, because it's somewhat obvious I won't get THD before said other book comes out.

Aside from books, I want to talk about something else. I met this guy - Eduardo - some time ago, really not in the best of my moods since it was clear I'd been crying and just broken down, but we share lots of common interests in music. He had me listen to Blind Guardian for the first time, and I can only say one thing. "I. Love. It." They have awesome songs, and they're based off books - including my beloved J.R.R. Tolkien books. I was listening to the album Nightfall In Middle-Earth today - still am, now listening to "Into The Storm" - and I just adore that one. It's based off The Silmarillion by Tolkien, and the music is just... you know, it gets to you, it makes you stick to it.

I swear, I'm adding those to the list of music to buy, because I really don't like listening to music and knowing I didn't pay for that... I guess it comes with my ties even as a starting musician, you know. My dad said it's stupid that I always want to buy the CD/DVD, but I think that if everyone listened only on youtube and downloaded stuff for free, the artists would never get any money and they live off that... it's like having the money to buy food but just stealing it and taking other people to ruin.

I guess, that's how I think of it. I want to get the CDs later, but I have so many to get... I'll see if I get more money now that I go up to SP, I hope my brother forgot about those R$34 that I supposedly owe him since last year... It's not my fault mom didn't give me money enough and he had to buy a shirt!

Anyway, I have some photos on my camera... and mom's with said camera for some time, so I probably won't post any photos until I get it back. For now, I'll feature a credited devitation... with Nikki and Slash, and our dearest tophat~!


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Let me see, it's been some time since I wrote here. My classes return on August 2nd, not giving me much time, and I need to pass the year more than ever. I also have lots of things to look forward to, as well as complain about and many things will keep me busy for the remaining months of this year.

Well, I went to my grandparents' apartment in Florianópolis for the first week of the holidays, and well... fuck, I hope I never go there again. I mean, I can't stand my grandfather, my grandmother can be terrible and I have no idea how many times I broke down there. It was shattering, for most part, though I managed to write some more... I feel I write better when away from home, or at least write more. Maybe because this place, even with mom around, has become so safe I don't really have much to write about. I'm back to the era where I go to school and home, I don't want to go out more... and at the same time I want to stay out.

I'm still making plans to get a running bike, but what I really want is a Harley. I want to set off somewhere without a place to go, but having somewhere to return to... maybe that's the best for me to try, but the laws of this place. Uh, how many times will I get angry at the law being for driving only at 18 years old, instead of 16?

Sure, I'm not sixteen yet, but I'll be fifteen at the end of the year and waiting another three years to be able to drive is like... ugh. Yeah. I don't really know, I want to go somewhere, do something... and I can't go anywhere with Harpy, my bike, because she's already old. Or I give her a complete fix or she's only taking me to guitar class and back. I don't want to let go of her, she's a good running bike.

Maybe if I get a motorcycle, then yeah... I can go wherever, whenever and not give a damn, still have somewhere to come home to, and if not... then I can find new places and go there. I don't know why, I guess I need this freedom thing.

Been listening to lots of things, lately, from Izzy to Bob Marley and Peter Tosh, and Alice Cooper, Mötley Crüe, The Alarm and other things... speaking of Iz, thanks to Duff on Seattle Weekly, I know about his new album, Wave Of Heat. I want to get my dad to buy that and see if I can get the others, too...

All these songs make me think, travel, and much more... but I need to write better. Guess what, then? I'm going to practice on Music Memes and follow on the ideas, making actual stories. Maybe that can work.

Well, I don't know, I don't know what I'll write about now... so maybe another time.

☆ハナです。☆

During the considerably long time I didn't write here, dA failed on me - it's still not working -, Mick Jagger showed to be a bad-luck charm for the World Cup, my mom came into my room when I had CLEARLY SAID I DIDN'T WANT HER MESSING HERE and she went through all my stuff, vanished with my guitar picks and "organized" the room - well, thanks mom, now I'm lost in a very unknown area.

Anyway, I'm trying to calm down and just find a way to work out things with dA - if it isn't back by tomorrow night, I'm going to murder it. I missed guitar class today, wasn't feeling so well and needed sleep both. I'm probably going to rest a bit before it's time for koi to come on, but I'm not tired anymore.

Now I'm listening to a bunch of Beatles songs, thinking of what to do. Tomorrow I'm dying my hair, and there's a gigantic test and then I have do to the other PE test again... Yeah. I've been very weird lately, my moods or go to extreme moodswingy or to emotionless-tired.

I'm actually writing this because I need to write SOMETHING and I'm not in the mood to "translate" my handwriting and pass the stories onto the computer now... so I may write something more in a bit if I find the right song. I usually look back on series on dA itself, it's less troublesome than on .Word, but it seems necessary now. I want it working again *pouts*

I just hope koi can come on before 3am (my time) then we'll have some time, it's weird... I miss her, ne, with only a little time to talk each day - when I don't fall asleep on her or something, since my hours are completely disorganized...

So I'm wasting my words writing here, on my other blog - I'll post a link as soon as it's enough - and on twitter.

Now, let me go find something to do ^^ Soon enough I'll write an actual update XD

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