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Well, hello! XD Today we had reharsal, and well, we managed to make new music! ^^
It's kind of just a project for now, and in the end... well, the boys are blasting the guitars/bass to pieces, but yeah XD Marcos made two strings of his guitar break in that part o.o

I'm glad Koinu didn't break any strings, 'cause he was with my guitar XD



We don't have lyrics yet, I'm working on them, and that's about what we have of it for now. XD

Damn, I had so much energy I couldn't stop jumping today. And I didn't even have chocolate until like, a bit ago. XD Wows.

So yeah, today was fun~ the boys have no idea what I'm planning for the lyrics, which is plain awesome. XDD I have my plans, but I won't let them in until it's actually more than a distant plan, or else they'll start barking everything before I even know what's going on~

xD And I like to work in secret.

I've been trying to draw again. I suck at arms, damn it x.x

I need to practise on arms, hands, and men's chests.

XD So I'm off to search for anatomy stuff~

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I just finished my first graphic design class, so I'm hanging around and using the computer before my time is up. Yeah, I have almost a full hour. XD Then another hour free, too! I wonder what I'll do with that hour...

Well, I got the camera here, so I could go over to the cemetery... or maybe just go around taking pics of flowers again~ XD

*sigh* I wish this computer had audio, it's just ugh to be without listening to music. o.o

Well, I'ma see if I can fix that 8D

~Ja

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First! Momma Slash and Daddy Slash with Slasher himself:


Now, to the news~ I signed up for a Graphic Design class, it'll last one year and I start this/next week~! ^^

I have some kind of writer's block now, hopefully it'll go away soon~! I want to write, to continue the stories I have, to do lots of things!

Updates will come later, now we must sleep~

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Some random pics I took on the 3rd of this month... around 2am... XDDD Crazy pics, by the way. I warned you! ... or not...























XD Finished the pic spam <3

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I found my dearest pet- *cough* I mean, Koinu, on formspring. XD
XDDD Yeah, yeah.
And I have some pictures of my adorable koi-chan now! *squeals* She's so cute!!!!!!!!! <3
And... lemme see what else is new in the last minues... my chocolate ended! XD It's predictable...

I may make a new blog soon, and soon it will be revealed! 8D

I really need to get a chat box here, since no one comments o.o xD

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It's not as easy as you might think,
to eat that is,
when all you want to do is shrink
and it's not pretty this.

When your bone break beneath your skin,
and even more when not even your kin,
sees the danger and harm you're in,
and it's even more when food is like sin.

And when your friends cannot convince,
and it's been hours since,
and even when you wince,
you still don't want to eat.

Stop, start, repeat again,
this cycle of pain,
does it ever end?

That's a poem Alice wrote about Anorexia, which I am turning into a song. For now, I'm doing little modifications on the lyrics, a minimum thing, and then I'll add the notes. What I have until now:

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... If you wanna rock n' roll! 8D

Yeah, I'm listening to AC/DC now, thanks to Aoi and Serginho. ^^ I'm home, by the way. Bought a nutella pot, had some chocolate sauce and am thinking what to have for dinner.

Speaking of that, my grandmother won't be around this week, meaning I gotta go to Silmere's and Serginho's class by bicicle, and to Aoi's house day after tomorrow, too.

I met LeH with Douglas today, while I was out in town... *sigh* I just hope she doesn't get crushed by that relationship.

I tried making a song, and FAILED EPICLY! 8D

I was not as thought as you drunk I am
I am not as think as you high I was
I was not as thought as you drunk I am
I am not as think as you high I was

I aint had no Jacks and
Not even some beer
Not a sip of Bailey
No fucking alcohol
Haven't seen me with the powder
Injecting into my veins
Be it heroin or coke
Fuck this shit I didn't, no

I was not as though... thought as you drunk I am
Not as think as you high I...
I fucking was, bitch...
Not as fucking high, not that fucking drunk
... Oh, just fuck you...

I was not as thought as you drunk I am
I am not as think as you high I was

Still a scrap actually, gotta work on it. XD

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I'm over at Aoi's, and Marcos is here, too. We're basically just:
1. Playing guitar;
2. Putting on earings;
3. Listening to shit.

Well, listening to fucking Axl Rose speaking about some guy trying to fuck him before singing Welcome To The Jungle. Yeeeeeeah.

I was like, crying my damn fucking eyes out when I got here, and I clawed at my hands and now they're almost fucking bleeding.

Well, yeah, calmed the hell down.

Listening to Guns N' fucking Roses, bitch! 8D

~Muah

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.........................................................
Here I am again, third entry. Can someone PLEASE get me off of this blog and make me write a fucking story?!?

Okay, calm down. I just need to bitch this out, I'm sorry. I'm going to calm down, because if I get angry I'm not going to turn into EFB, but into EDM.

I need to read about/from Teruki... now!

efb: Emo Fluff Ball
edm: Emo Death Mode

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I felt like I needed to post again, I may need to write more. More and more each time, I need writing to survive, along with music. Fuck, I feel so lost without it, it's been some days without writing.

I must go open .Word and write more, at least my depressing feelings help with that. I feel the need to write something about Mercury, too... *sigh* I want to finish their profiles so I can start the damn story.

The heat is back, by the way. Mom is with my fan, and that makes me extremely uncomfortable. Yeah... -.-" I don't know if I should be worried, happy, annoyed, depressed, dead, nothing at all... .-.

I just want to listen to old Guns N' Roses songs and Linkin Park's Numb until I calm down, maybe some Slipknot and/or old Metallica.

I'm tired... but I'm gonna sleep in some hours, so yeah.

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Thanks to siseja for posting it on livejournal, I am currenly obsessed with Chocolat, by Kaya. Here's the pv:



I also changed my layout, changed a lot. Alice, and we're kind of together now... o///////o

I did the test at SemeUke.com again, and this time I got SEME! *throws a party* XD

Well, yes... ^^;;

And now to my Guns N' Roses obsession... I really stopped being as angry at Axl as I was before, but I'm still not happy about what he did, at all. They say Slash is going to play with the other three (Duff, Izzy and Steven) in Canada, or something. I hope so... Now let me post some videos here, just for the cuteness (huh? o.o).



The epic and immortal Sweet Child O' Mine, in special clip, of course right at the top. Well, it's expected, coming from me... ^^;;



And November Rain following right in second! height="364" width="445">

... I totally can't imagine Axl actually singing that, not matter how many times I watch it. To me, Axl Rose is the exact opposite of patience...



And Paradise City~

On another note, I fucking missed reharsal, and the band is angry... I know they should be. I'm angry at myself for that, I'm such an idiot. And I know they'll just throw me out sooneror later, it's not my fucking fault I missed. Anyway, I feel like digging a hole and dying. .-. If they say much, which I know they will, my stupid emotions will act and I'd probably start crying and then avoid them for a week.

I just want to curl up in bed and rot there, see how long it takes to die. Or something. Just slow torture. I know I'll end up torturing myself again and again about this, I won't just forgive it. I wish I could just let go.

I'm sorry for this depressing text at the end, I really needed to let this out. I hate being useless, and I practically abandoned them by not going today. I'm sorry guys, even if I know you aren't reading this.

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I'm over at Aoi's now.
It's like, fucking 6:39 am... lol I didn't sleep yet.
We'll be heading off to school soon, he's getting ready. I need water, I haven't had any since... omj, around 7pm last night.

Okay, lemme explain. Yesterday I came over to Watusy's party, and like, we totally got lost. Lol. I called Koinu some... 5000 (which translates to 3) times in less than 20 mins. Okay, so then he went over and walked me to the party <3
*cough* Anyway, he left around 9pm and kissed my cheek when he left, which is kinda new, since there never was this kind of contact between us even as friends, even less now that he knows stuff.

Oh, and I did something stupid. On an emotion-ridden impulse, I threw away my BFF necklace... er... into the woods... into somewhere I can't get it back from... x.x

LeH is SO gonna kill me when she finds out, and I dunno if Aoi knows about me still talking to her all the time and shit.

Anyway, let me not write much of this 'cause he's right here, too.

So... wtf did I wanna say anyway? o.o

Okay, whatever.

Dei hasn't been on for quite some time .-. I miss her...

Danna's so totally obsessed with WoW, it's almost scary. XDDDD But she named her pet after me <3

What else...?

Oh, yeah. LeH is studying in the afternoon for over a week now, I kinda miss her around, but it doesn't do that much difference during school time and stuff.

Well, I'ma see if I grab some water before we leave.

Ja~