☆ハナ☆

☆ハナです。☆

Let me see, it's been some time since I wrote here. My classes return on August 2nd, not giving me much time, and I need to pass the year more than ever. I also have lots of things to look forward to, as well as complain about and many things will keep me busy for the remaining months of this year.

Well, I went to my grandparents' apartment in Florianópolis for the first week of the holidays, and well... fuck, I hope I never go there again. I mean, I can't stand my grandfather, my grandmother can be terrible and I have no idea how many times I broke down there. It was shattering, for most part, though I managed to write some more... I feel I write better when away from home, or at least write more. Maybe because this place, even with mom around, has become so safe I don't really have much to write about. I'm back to the era where I go to school and home, I don't want to go out more... and at the same time I want to stay out.

I'm still making plans to get a running bike, but what I really want is a Harley. I want to set off somewhere without a place to go, but having somewhere to return to... maybe that's the best for me to try, but the laws of this place. Uh, how many times will I get angry at the law being for driving only at 18 years old, instead of 16?

Sure, I'm not sixteen yet, but I'll be fifteen at the end of the year and waiting another three years to be able to drive is like... ugh. Yeah. I don't really know, I want to go somewhere, do something... and I can't go anywhere with Harpy, my bike, because she's already old. Or I give her a complete fix or she's only taking me to guitar class and back. I don't want to let go of her, she's a good running bike.

Maybe if I get a motorcycle, then yeah... I can go wherever, whenever and not give a damn, still have somewhere to come home to, and if not... then I can find new places and go there. I don't know why, I guess I need this freedom thing.

Been listening to lots of things, lately, from Izzy to Bob Marley and Peter Tosh, and Alice Cooper, Mötley Crüe, The Alarm and other things... speaking of Iz, thanks to Duff on Seattle Weekly, I know about his new album, Wave Of Heat. I want to get my dad to buy that and see if I can get the others, too...

All these songs make me think, travel, and much more... but I need to write better. Guess what, then? I'm going to practice on Music Memes and follow on the ideas, making actual stories. Maybe that can work.

Well, I don't know, I don't know what I'll write about now... so maybe another time.