☆ハナ☆

☆ハナです。☆

Music is one of the only things I fall in love with and stick to it, and following that is studies in culture and good stories. I read good stuff, or what I consider to be good, since everyone has an opinion. Those stories go from manga lines, from the anime I watch and hear, the books I read or anything, like biographies and band stories.

I may be seen as insane in many ways, I really am, but I do see music in anything, depending on it's point. I'm inspired in music, I think about bands and musicians, and the music calms me or tells me a story. Being a musician myself, I tend to focus a lot on music, and now I'm actually, well, writing about that. I see some people think I'll abandon writing my anime and manga fanfics, but I really won't. It just... I just have to fit the ideas, you know?

At the moment I'm listening to Sixx Sense, and they Mick Mars there now. They're just... I mean, the stories about the '80s and '90s, and what happened with the guys and things like when it seemed that only Angus was standing on an AC/DC show, playing his guitar while everyone else seemed to fall and then they just didn't stop, Angus went on and they continued playing after they got up.

There's also the fights and how things happened in relationships and how on earth people survived, because if you get like... Guns. Guns was, like many other bands, a machine. You couldn't really control it, it rode on it's tracks and it eventually fell off. As much as I wish they'd still be on, I can get it.

If you get the Stones, or AC/DC and so, do you have any idea how the hell they managed to keep the band together? Some people go so over the surface, it goes like "Oh, they're friends, they play awesome music" and done. But it's not like that, there's the pressure of having your post to stand, and on tour, in a live, you just have to know where to be, what to do when, what you shouldn't say, what you should, which are the notes, lyrics, what part of the song to do what, who's going to move where and the place of everything there.

Also, to make music there's the songwriter, who can choose to make the lyrics first and then the others have to throw music on top of that, and then go adapting the music and lyrics along the way. There's also the other way around, the music is ready but you have to put words to it. It depends on who's writing, who they are, how they are and what they're most comfortable with. But when your band has this awesome instrumental part, you just can't let them down or not make lyrics, even if it tears your head off.

So there is the pressure. Also, let's get Chinese Democracy and Axl obsessing over it. The delay in the album, the messing with the band, the recording... it's actually hard to record, too, because you need to do it in one tempo and unless you have money to throw through your window, you have to record each part of the song for each instrument and voice in diferent parts and then throw it together and hope it works well, and the sound comes out like you want it to.

There's also the release date, the pressure or doing it all in time and well, this delaying the release is pressure on the musicians, but having the date set on such complications is like that, too. So all in all, there is a huge ammount of pressure on your back simply in that, but if your lyrics don't fit, if something is wrong with the guitar sound, if someone freaks out over someone else getting something wrong, if they get late, early, photoshoots, videos, and so on.

Also, it's hard to live off music, it's just a few of the millions of bands that can actually get that spot that Aerosmith, Rolling Stones, Motley Crüe, Guns N' Roses, The Beatles and other guys that exploded got. Because there are really good, potential-filled small bands. Some people just don't see them, it's really hard when some others blind them. Like Slash said, it's full of good new bands out there but you just can't see them.

And there are relationships, too. If you're in a touring band, something that's always moving, reocording and travelling, it's almost never stopped, you'll be away from friends and family for quite some time unless they go with you, which won't always happen. You can always have a boyfriend or girlfriend that goes on tour, or keep contact when you're on tour, or stuff like that. But when it comes to a person who wouldn't want to travel and keep jumping around from place to place and also can't stand the distance, it's just a matter or working things out or it's going to break.

There's also the band friendships and relationships, because when you fight with someone in your band, a friend, you can always make up and hug and stuff even if you had yourself on fists. Now if you have a relationship like romantic or sexual relatioships with someone in your band, if you guys fight badly there's a high chance of it breaking the band in a way, or of it changing and all... also, the different opinions of this and that, you really gotta be able to deal with it.

And there's like, the other way around. As much as the band can affect your personal life, it also happens the other way around. Your song or music can get darker or lighter, you can want to be exiled, you can be completely broken to do anything and many other situations, so you have to know how to hold that well, or make two different lives for yourself.

But for that all to happen, there's also the good stuff. A band, in time, gets to be your family. It's like, you live in the same place at least at sometime, touring or recording, or you have that contact and it's like you can count on the others no matter what, from ridiculous to the most serious shit.

You push yourselves forwards, help going up or just... are there to be a complete idiot. It's a family, it's a way of assuring you're not alone, too, and you always have those friends there. Even if it breaks, if something happens badly, well, it's still there while it lasts.

It's... well, it's way too much to put in a post. There's the energy of the band, of the music, the lives and all... and it's going to break or just go on until the end, there's no seeing ahead. I just... wanted to write down my thoughts, and that I'm not stopping the fanfics on other things or my original stories.

Just... as many times as I've said it before, I wanted to write this.

☆おやすみ。☆